what will you do to be thin?

or in my case a healthy body weight. Well, tonite I am having my assessment interview with a hypno therapist to see if he can help me, all else having failed at this point. Over the years on meds, clubs, books and specific foods I have spent £100's at least this way, even if it doesn't work, I should feel better for my money.
I am desperate, I need to lose weight, quite a lot to get out of the "oh my god i'm amazed you haven't had a heart attack already" weight bracket. This worries me, especially since my eating is out of control and my weight is heading up again. I am unhappy with it, it makes me feel achey and lethargic and i don't sleep well and things are gettin gon top of me and sometimes i look in the mirror and want to cry, and yet in every other way my life is happier and better than it has ever been, I have never loved or accepted myself as well as i do now, everything accept my weight. I don't even wan to be thin, I love having curves, I wouldn't lose them for the world, but it is out of hand right now. Badly.
So wish me luck tonite, because if this is a no go, then i don't know what else i can do.