Wednesday, November 30

do you spare a thought for summer?

Quotes of the Summer

“Tim, They’ve finished!” (Long after Black Sabbath had finished their set at Download, Tim was still dancing away to the music – even though there wasn’t any…)

“Hit after hit after Mfing hit…..” (I didn’t realise how many fantastic songs Brian Wilson had written for the Beach Boys)

“I’m not doing posh camping this time. Would anybody like an olive?” (Rob seemed to say this every single weekend)

“Rope!” (Rob was certainly having a babble-athon at Lloonstock)

“Look, I’m trying to chat her up, now Fcuk off!” (The man with the lovely ginger beard was intent on trying to chat Jo up at Rock and Blues)

“Fcuk off you little bitch!” (Rhiannon endears herself to Jan during her sleep)

“I can neither confirm nor deny…..” (I was very unsure whether it was me or not that urinated on Pauls car at Lloonstock)

“I’ve just hit a kid!” (Ivan was sure that he’d had a cycle accident of his way to the toilet at Matlock 1)

“Where’s Ivan?” (Ivan had disappeared during the Nine Black Alps gig at the Charlotte, to be immediately found flying through the air towards us)

“Is that lightning?” (Ivans’ all to accurate weather prediction at Glastonbury)

“Mr Plumpton, I love you…” (Tim extolls his son at Glastonbudget)

“Lavender cake? It’s like eating bush!” (Rob is a little unsure about the virtues of eating cake flavoured by flowers at Matlock 1)

“But I want some ant-powder…..” (Random man dressed in red at Asda upon discovery that the 24 hour Asda at Fosse Park was closed at 22:00)

“I don’t like smoked kippers.” (Adele unwittingly explains that she prefers her kipper unsmoked)

“It’s not every day you score 180 at darts and hit a bloke in a band with a strawberry.” (Rob is rather pleased with his throwing ability in Scarborough)

hold me, like you held on to life, when your fears came to life!

Happy brithday to me!!!!
I am 28 today. Eeek. I am not a grown up, i am not a grwon up i am not a grown up. Ok we clear on that?

i'm going into full on annual review stage, i do it now instead of new years, it's only a months difference anyhow.
so this year
Great dissapointments
the house still isn't decorated
i am the same weight as i was last year
i seem to have more animals rather than fewer

great joys
I am not only finally permenant at work, but doing exactly the job i would pick for myself
I have had many mini adventures and personal firsts this year
I have started to take chanc es and embrace living
i have macde many new friends this year, some quite good ones, all good people.
I have seen some of the bands i have wanted to see for 15yrs like Sabbath and Alice Cooper
Mark. lol, yes so good i said it twice
Marks family, seriously, they are a blessing, they are lovely people, and definately easy to be around, which makes a real difference.

Ok, well i reckon the bablance this year is clearly toward the positive. :)

Tuesday, November 29

but if love is what your dying to discover darlin', don't slit your wrists for me.

aaargh. I am sooo squeamish and i just hacked into myself with some fabricshears, doing christmas stockings. There we go, don't say no one ever bleeds for christmas. lol.

anyway, this is a pic of my parents going through the ford near them. just for the hell really.

that's why i'm easy, easy like sunday morning

ah, payday, how i love it. And this month i got back pay, and overtime, and i have a tonne of xmas sopping to do. I think this is the first christmas i have ever been able to afford to get everyone a real present, usually my sister loses out, this year i am even seeing to iot she and david get decent pressies.
I also had lunch with Marie which is always fun. We talked about work, and our courses, and house moves and all the fun stuff we always talk about. I feel better for it.
I have been having ttroble all day getting my headstraight about what day it actually is tho. Tam suggested i not walk and try to chew gum at the same time. Honestly, today...she has a point. ;)

Monday, November 28

who are you? whowho whowho?

How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.
How Do You Live Your Life?

hmm, well i dont change friends quickly. for the record.

i'm fabulous, just not logical!

Your IQ Is 120

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

is that my town?

so the really interesting thing about having Tam explore leicester on her own is she sees the city so differentyl. I know that braunstone is a dump, it's a pain to deal with through work and its ASBO heaven (anti social behaviour order), she sees the beauty spot, because it does have a lovely green park, i just never stopped to look at it.
It's not a dangerous area for her or i'd have said, it's just that my dad once called it the open prison, for a reason. I know, it's getting lots of money and they are trying really hard to improve it, but it will never be anything else in my mind.
Her photos too are showing me things i never noticed. I must look at my city again. :)

Strange Days

Ok, so Tammy seems to be settling in ok, which is great news. I think in some ways it will take longer for me to get use dot having someone around, than it will her to settle properly. lol. I am sooo stuck in my ways. And it's the little things, Mark noticed too, like having to put a dressing gown on to go to the loo in the middle of the night. It's great tho. We are getting used ot it tho. And it is nice to have her around.
Other news over the weekend is that i finally met Marks grandparents, who are lovely!! It was nice to finally meet them and they seemed to enjoy the visit.
It looks like we won't make Nikkis birthday, wretched creature is a january baby and money is going to be tight after christmas, but i think she is planning on going to the peak district, which sounds like day trip distance to me. ;)
I got a dress for marks work xmas do aswell, which he likes, so that is good, we should be sorted. He is still in shock that i am even wearing a dress. lol.
We are also hoping to head out to Stratford with Tam and Phil on sunday. yay!
Birthday plans keep changing, but it now looks like renting a couple of movies, ordering pizza and slouching around wednesday, then Mark and I are gonna take ourselves out for dinner on thursday night.

Friday, November 25

Not much to say to this. :)

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life.
You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.
You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines.
You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

it's not your fault you're the living dead!

Ok, so i promised making the Toast recommends thing a weekly regular, and it's friday, which means it's recommendation day.

It's another band this week, a bit better known than Harem Pilots, I give you *drum roll*
eighties matchbox b-line disaster!
We saw these guys live at Rock in the Castle in Scarborough, infact Rob hit the lead singer with a strawberry (it was a mark of respect).
We liked them. I bought an album att he first opportunity. I liked them a lot!

This site has plenty of info, don't know if it's official or not, but it'll do for me.


Ok, so Tammy arrived a couple of hours early, which worked out well, coz i was able to scrounge a lift back in the pool car rather than getting a cab.
We wandered down to Asda (wallmart now) for some basic supplies, and then reviewed maps of the area.
I put dinner in when Mark said he was able to make it down. We had roast chicken, sweet potatoe mash, roasties, roast parsnips, peas & gravy. It was very good, if i do say so myself. Of course it was pretty much just bung it in the oven and forget it for a while, but its ages since i've had a chicken that fell away from the bone so beautifully.
Anyway, Tam then headed up to let people know se was here safe and Mark and i vegged out in front of the tv.
All told it was a good night.
I am looking forward to getting to know Tam better and having a lot of fun over the next few months.

Thursday, November 24

T - 2hrs 30 mins

Tam is due into St Mags, in just over two hours, poor girl will have been travelling for a reeeelly long time, including about 5/6hrs on the coach. Yikes! She has my sympathies. Anyway, i am collecting her at 3 pm and we will head back to mine for the afternoon.
The house is still a tip, the rats need mucking out, they smell. i managed to get her room almost cleared and civilised, but not completely, at least it's been hoovered. Good god, I am sooo unprepared still. Non the less, i reckon clean sheets and the internet will be the priorities and those i do have!

i'm a little worried now coz i thought i was normal

You Are 60% Weird
You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

Filling the web with junk

and i love it. :)

i know how you feel. i just don't care.

which IT'S HAPPY BUNNY are you?
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Wednesday, November 23

I'm a scientist!

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

It's cold outside, there's no kind of atmosphere, i'm all alone, more or less

I am shattered. The new bed is very comfy, but it is also new, which means i didn't sleep so well on it. The bunnies seem fine after their move into the convservatory. Quite content, altho eric is keeping his distance coz i kept picking him up last night. He's just too cuddleable! I have class tonite, and i need ot get the bed made up for Tammy, i reckon she'll be able to put up with a couple of days disruption as long as she gets a decent night sleep.

Apparently it's going to snow this week. Snow in November? It doesn't happen that often, just hope it doesn't interfere with Mark coming down for the weekend.

Tuesday, November 22

i am mr inbetween, i'd like you to know what i mean,

whew, i am shattered. The bunnies are moved into the conservatory. The bed was delivered, put together and i have madeitup. The diningroom has been hoovered, althought there is plenty of work left to do there. Thespare room is slowly getting close to habitable. I expect i will have to disturb Tam on Saturday to finish clearingt he crap out that's stored in there, but she will at least have a place to hang her clothes and a comfy bed when she gets here. I just need to do the dishes, clean the bathroom and do supper now tonite. Tommorrow when i get back from work and school (8pm) i shall have to cleanChaos and Stryfe coz they stink, quite frankly.
Then i should be just about ready for a guest. I am shattered and i need a bath and i don't know yet whether Mark is coming down tonite.
I really hope he is.

Monday, November 21

The Cottage of Content

We ate here on saturday night.

Sadly it has changed hands. I amtold that it used to be amazingly characterfull (is that a real word) and the food was outstanding. As it was it was a nice, if average old pub, the real fire replaced by a gas one, the menu reduced to basic pub fare and all the really quirky things gone. It was perfectly nice but dissapointed after Margarets descriptions of how it used to be. I am still glad to have been.

Still, it's one of the best names i have ever seen for a place!

House Mouse

well, my new bed is being delivred tommorrow, and M and i just spent a lovely weekend in the cotswolds during which we looked round a show home. It was a 5 bedroom house, very beautiful, well beyond any budget we will have, but interestingly i wouldnt have wanted it anyway. It showed me that the size of rooms is more improtant to me than the number. With this in mind I am starting to seriously think about what and where we should look when we are ready to buy. M & I plan to sell my house when the mortgage comes up in about 18months, and buy something together, like a proper couple, it's very exciting!!! Og course its still at least 18 months away and i don't reeelly ned to be thining about it yet, but I can't help myself. I am also enjoying the anticipation of ripping up the dining room carpet to see what condition the old floor boards are in. EEEEK!! I can barely contain my excitment!

Friday, November 18

Toast Recommends!

I think I am going to try and do this every friday, recommend a band or website or something.
This week, it's the Harem Pilots.
These guys are great, they deserve a massive record deal and one of them is part of our camping group, which is how i stumbled accross them. You can download soem of their tracks for free from the website. If you like any kind of rock, take a look.
If you have any recommendation of your own, please let me know and i shall put them here and filter them into the website if i like them. :)

I am nothing more than a line in your book

it feels like a monday. I think that's because I went away straight from work on weds and went to Phil's graduation yesterday, so was playing with my hunny and his fam in yorkshire, instead of working over here in leics. It's been an odd week all told really, with my first test on wednesday and yesterdays feeling so much like a lazy sunday in the afternoon.
I am still full of cold, so nothing feels quite real anyway. In a way i like that about head colds, the sense that nothing is quite solid, it makes me feel like reality is far more tenuous than we like to admit.
I don't seem to be able to add pics again atwork, so i shall get online over the weekend and post a couple i want to share with you all.
I love that it's friday today!!

ok, 10 things about me
I snore - loudly
One of my favourite things about camping is going a few days without washing, and no one caring.
I may well be addicted to caffiene, it is almost the first thing i think of when i wake up.
I sometimes forget when Mark isn't sleeping with me, roll over to cuddle him and feel sad when my arm meet the bed again.
I still sleep with soft toys when i am on my own in the house, i find the contact when i move reassuring.
If we were aloud to keep guns in this country i would, even tho i don't approve of it. I guess i am a hypocrite.
I don't believe in any god, but I do have faith.
I love cheese, but not the mouldy green or blue ones.
I want a fluffy hot water bottle coz i hate being all shivery in winter.
I miss spinning with my arms out in the sunshine till i fall over in the soft grass.

Wednesday, November 16

we're not gonna take it, NO! we're not gonna take it! We're not gonna take it, anymore!

wooohooo! I am on a glam metal high!!!! Soo, went to see Alice Cooper and Twisted Sister last night. Alissssssssssssss was headlining and he was great, one of those, must see before he dies bands for me, and now i am happy. It was a good show, although not as many hits as i'd have hoped for.
Twisted Sister, ah, the shoulder padded panto dame and his hairy friends. He is truly a sick mother f**ker. And damn they were awesome!! Blew my mind and rocked my little cotton socks off!! They stole the show, i was singing along to stuff I didn't even know! And for a man of 50 Dee Snider (SP?)is in pretty good shape, it did rather make the point that i have no excuse for being in bad shape at my age if this old giffer who had to keep nipping off stage for oxygen (I kid you not) can keep his body tight. And I have to say, inspite of needing oxygen regularly he delivered one of the more energetic performances i have ever seen!!! Rock on ye gods of glam!

Tuesday, November 15

pointless waste of time and energy - which is of course why i did it.

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

I might as well be on mars!

Twisted sister and Alice Cooper tonight!!! It doesn't get much more Glam than that. :)


of course it won't snow here this christmas, we should get some beautiful frosts on the hills around my parents tho, but it never snows here in December.
On the first of December, after my birthday we shall put up the decorations and Mark will insist on playing christmas music, i think the best thing to do is get some that i don't find soooo awful. ;)

So with my brithday and christmas fast approaching i begin the new year self assessment this time of year, i know it's early, but i get a year older soon remember.

How have i done this year?
Well, I made no progress whatsoever in the long run with my weight. It bummed me out something rotten, why can't i seem to do anything about it?

I travelled alone to germany to stay with Uplifting Soul, i was poorly, but i was stillso glad to have done it.
I finally went to Edinburgh.
I started two courses through work.
I went permenant at work.
Before the end of the year I will finally be on the pension scheme.
I let one relationship go and found another.
I saw one of my best friends marry and overcame my terror of public speaking, and won my first ever sweepstake.
I became a bunny mom.
I went to my first festival, went camping for the first time and generally had a most amazing summer.
I took up walking to work (suspended this week due to sickness)
I built my website - which i have wanted to do for years.

Off the top of my head that's it, more later when i can look into it better.

Blog tip of the week, check out it's an amazing blog.

Monday, November 14


i should be studying, i have an exam on weds. Oh hell i will make some time tommorrow at work to revise. Hmm, and i shall study for an hour tonite, I only need to get 40% but i sooo can't fail this, its my first module, and it's an easy course, i mean how humiliating would that be. Would be nice if I at least had my first coursework back tho so i knew id done ok.

Had a weird day. last week was tense, maybe i was giving off weird vibes i don't know, i was a bit tense about stuff. Some of it i still am anxious about, but i am at last gaining some sense of control again, which is good. Anyway, I am full of stinking cold again, hence the fnargleing, but in spite of feeling lousy it was a good day. My boss and our group manager backed me up over an issue, I mean we had all agreed it was the right line, but still it was nice to have the back up, it's nice to be in a job where you get the support when you need it. I had some surreal phone calls, that just made me smile, instead of the usual Mr and Mrs Angry. Q69 is back in town, which is always a good thing, and it sounds like she had the best time away!!
Munky loves me, well this we knew but its always nice to hear. I had lunch with Marie which is always good, and relaxing, even if we are both stressed.

It's just been a good day, even tho i felt dreadful. Oh and the coffee's were endless. :)

right, pudding, then homework, then maybe enuff time to say hi to my lovemunky before bed.

top queer

ok, so it is funnier than top gayer, the motoring website for homosexuals. :)

Was watching the new series of top gear last night, so glad it's back!! Yayyy!!

Friday, November 11

we are so far from you...

so, tonite we are off out for dinner to celebrate 6 months. I am really looking forward to it, nice to mark the first significant point in the relationship.
I also now have less than two weeks before Tammy arrives to get the house straight. EEEK. This weekend will be busy cleaning and tidying i think.
I am getting a new bed for b-day and xmas from my folks hiope to have that delivered next friday. Awesome a real bed, comfy and new, it'll be the first time i've had a decent bed sicne i left home 9 years ago. Woohoo.It's got drawers under it. I know, that's the stupedest thing to stress about, but i have sooo often wihsed i could store things under the bed. It feels like wasted space at the moment and i have so much junk i hate to waste space. :)

Thursday, November 10


soo, this saturday M and I have been together 6months. It's made me think about anniversaries and milestones. My family isnt much into them really, but I think it would be nice to mark off the first significant point on the timeline for us.

Funny things tho milestones, first day of a new school, fisrt proper kiss, first friend you made at uni. People themselves, acting as a reminder of who you were and how we change. I told Jolanda once she was a milestone, she is, all my university experiances, certainly the first two years, can be parecelled up in the memories of a few people, Jo, Nikki, Simon. I think between them they hold the most accurate record of those days.

Found this definition
mile·stone (mīl'stōn')
A stone marker set up on a roadside to indicate the distance in miles from a given point.
An important event, as in a person's career, the history of a nation, or the advancement of knowledge in a field; a turning point.

So I would like to add
Milestone def 3 - A person who keeps a record, through shared memories, of developments and changes in another, and who signifies, the begining of a life stage.

nuff said

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

Tuesday, November 8

i gave a letter to the postman,he put it in his sack...

Especially for you Gizmo. ;)
Okies, so apparently not everyon wants to hear that i was anxious about my smear test. jeese Giz, how long since you checked in. So seriously you've been with P 8 years now? When are you getting married?!!! Gods, where did the time go. 5 minutes ago we were in billys Classics Class doing tarot under the desk. I don't even know where to reach Offer and Tigs now,Lee is married, you and Faye might as well be. Well if i was feeling nostalgicthis morning, now its three times worse, has it reallybeen ten yearssince the immortal "shut the F**K up or i'll jump on your head"?
Ten years older, maybe just a little wiser, certainly changed.

Piers nose and toes

ok, so i chatted to my brother, it made me feel loads better. The feel of things hasn't changed at all between us, and anyone who isnt fussed that i woke her up at 3am coz i was bored and wanted my bo has to be pretty cool. Actually anyone who can cope with his way of life is something special. lol.

On a more somber note, the european news is full of riots and and violence and civil and racial unrest. Is it just me, or does it seem toeveryone that the last couple ofyears have seen more natral disasters and violence and supposedly civilised nations rioting and burning than there has been in many years? Fossil fuels are due to run out in less than 30 years and we still seem to be sitting around doing nothing about it. Maybe this is part of the natural cycle, governments and people become complacent, ignore the growing issues around them,especially in an increasingly superficial world. Eventually things start to snap, little bits first, thengrowing til the whole worldhas to sit up and say oops. Maybe the natural disasters are just the earth getting in on the revolution, take better care of me you selfish brats or i might get nasty. Maybe the world will end in 2015, or maybe it'll just wake up and smell the morning dew for a change.

The book i read last nite raissed aninteresting point for me. One of the characters askedwhen we stopped playingt he what if game. Like, what if i was a pirate on the high seas, and what if I got eaten by a whale while i was out pirating and what if ... well you get the idea. I must admit i'm a little out of practise. My what ifs tend to be, what ifibuy this now for me,will ihave enough money for bus fare home? What if it rains realy hard tommorrow and ican't walk intowork, how will i get my excercise. lol. You see my point?

So do two things for me tommorrow, try to go the whole day without saying anything negative (you dont have to be pollyanna, just try it) and play a little fantasy world what if.
What if the stars all started dancing inthe sky and what if the moon could sing and accompany them onthe harpsicord.

I'll let you know how i do.

growing up....i don't wanna

Sooooo, i couldn't sleep, and at midnight i was feeling a little blue and as in the past texted my brother to see if he was awake to chat. He wasn't, at least not when i texted. Eventually I got this text back
"Hia im up now Denise woke up cos my phone was beeping. so she tryed 2 tern my phone off but rangthe house by axedent first. so mum thort we had been blone away by the wind and came 2 check. we sore a torch and thort we had prowlers so i whent out 2 check and fawnd mum. and now we are all awake so hows that 4 a series of avents. and D and I r finewerking 2 hardas usual and u wonet recognise the caravan cos its had a womans tuch. talk soon"
ok, a couple of words of explanation may be useful here, first of all my brother is dyslexic, which is why some of the spellings are kinda odd, this has led to much amusement in the past, but that's another sotry. Second he and his girlfriend Denise live in a mobile home on top of a hill at the back of my parents place. It rocks a lot when its windy.
So my innocent little text caused utter chaos, i feel a plonker. But i gues it's a taste of things to come, and this is what this post is all about. For years my bro hasn't had a steady girlfriend, so when i am down there i bang oin his door, let myself in and just hang out with my bro. I don't know how to share him really, I got pissy with my ex when he took too much of my brothers attention. I have always been quite a demanding little sister, we have always been quite close. He's 6 years older than me, and when he left home, under a cloud and wasn't in contact for ages i felt utterly abandoned and lost. I was only 12 remember, i needed my big brother. When i am awake in the middle of the night and need to make contact with the outside world I automatically think of Piers, after all it's him I called at 3am just to chat when we were both students. Now I can't demand his undivided attention anymore, it'll be Denise sharing him with me, it feels weird. I feel 12 again. Ok, so my world isn't gonna crumble, but I am pretty hormonal at the moment and realising that even those things that are ground into who you are can vanish sooo easily. It's shaken me a little. So at the end of the day it amounts to this. Growing up seems to consist of losing one reassuring myth after another, first Father Christmas, then the Easter Bunny, and the Toothfairy, finally that my brother is on 24hr call to be my brother. I guess I forgot he gets to lead his life too.

Monday, November 7

the deadly donkey

Beware the Deadly Donkey
Falling slowly fromth e skky
You can CHOOSE the way
You LIVE, my friend
But not the way you DIE

Edward Monkton

lol. I love this stuff, i love the ratherrgood website too, they do these mental little cartoons, just silly and fun y'know.

remember remember ...

who else loves a good conspiracy?
well, the BBC online mag has been speculating, what would happen if guy fawkes had succeeded. I love this sort of thing, serious historians speculating on hoe the world would be different, but really who can know, how would i be differnet if I had gone to Brunel with a view to studying, rather than Newcastle with a view to rebelling? Anyway, for those who share my love of speculation, here is the article.

I am off sick today. I have allowed myself to become very run down, and last weeks pregnancy scare demonstrates how messed up my hormones are at the mo. Stil waiting for normal service to resume! I need to rest and restore, so I have taken today as study leave and am doing a mix of studying for my exam next week and winding down, taking care of myself a bit. Oh for a reset button!

Friday, November 4

i used to go to bed so high and wired!!!

yawn. well another week over. I haven't had any calls to tell me about protesters harrassing my workmen, so I guess I have that to look forward next week, I have explained to the bank agaaaaain that theboy left in feb so my address is serving them no useful purpose and i have printed a stack of photos, still looking for a suitable album. It's been an eventfull 2005, I plan to give it its own album!
M had his first day of working from home today and he was at mine, woohoo, I got to leave a man in my bed while i went to work, and he's in charge of duinner tonite, if I lived in the 40's i'd have wanted to be a man. ;)
Vampire bats are killing in Brazil, yet more evidence of what happens when we plow in and destroy habitats without thinking. Sad for the people who died, but yet another warning which the species as a whole will ignore. Personally i think bats are cute, love 'em!! Plan to scanm the article and post it here later.
Less than 3 weeks now till Tammy arrives! I am very excited about her visit!!! She's staying till March I think, and we are gonna celebrate by having a mini thanksgiving so she doesnt miss out by being in Forn parts.
I think that's about all I have to report for now. Smooches folks.
La Toastada!

Thursday, November 3

snail loving

I have had some wonderful snail mails recently, after a bit of a dry spell. I haven't sent as many out lately either. The wonderful thing is that they cam as a quick surprise one after another for a few days. It makes me feel connected and loved and thought of. I think in this day of email and instant messeging, nothing is quite as lovely as recieving a good old fashioned letter from a freind!

Wednesday, November 2

this fortress won't fall, i've built it strong, for you!

The sky is dark,
the sun can't crack
through the shadows
of a heart this black.

If you offer me peace
you'll recieve only pain,
leave me alone
to rage, in the rain!

Dark Light

another pic for the Villeophiles. I have been listening to HIM's new album dark light obsessively at work, it's superb. It has also been a welcome distraction. Dear godess i am exhausted!! It's been a crazy crazy day. I have just put an older HIM album on for my listening pleasure tonite.
hmmm, the silky tones. *grins*

Between crazy day at work, college, the bunny being a loon and my PC misbehaving an dmy body rebelling against me I could pretty much throw a rock star sized tantrum right now. But I won't I amgonna breathe, be calm and wait for my sexy bit to join me online for a natter. In the meantime i'm gonna veg out online.

for your soul, my love, rip out the wings of a butterfly

wow!! loving the new HIM album!! Can't stop listening!
really shattered today. I know I keep saying this, but i need a break to shake off the wearies. Can't yet tho, still so much to get done. I will be glad to have this assignment done so i can focus on preparing for the exam, all this on top of working odd hours the last couple of weeks and sooo much to do here.
I love all these apsects of my life but typically they have all kicked into the high gears at once. Yikes I am overwhelmed. Thank goddess for my man and my friends!

Tuesday, November 1

based on real events

Me and Q69 and some other friends got together last night, drank punch and watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre. I slept surprisingly well last night. I don't know how long their movie marathon went on, i had to head home after the first film, but it was fun.

Needless to say i was a wee bit twitchy when i first got home and finally went to bed at 11pm, still wide awake, but once i relaxed i was out cold. Still would be if it were my call. Ah well. ;)